Isaiah 55:8-9
Acts 1:7-8
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."
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" He said to them: “It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by his own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth"
While at summer league I was able to meet with a team and have an informal interview. I had come highly recommended. They had heard nothing but great things. I left that conversation with some renewed hope and energy that I would be going back to Portland to pack my stuff and move to my next destination. That ended up not being the case. It was just like the beginning of a multitude of interviews I would encounter. That team ultimately decided to go with someone else and I was back to the drawing board. That drawing board presented many different option and opportunities. I interviewed with a handful of teams that showed interest but when it came down to the final stages. I heard nothing. Nothing at all. Not even a sorry we went with this or that person. I begat to cry out practically everyday. God if you love me and Your word is true, why am I not hearing anything? Why am I not receiving the desires of my heart. Can you even hear me?
I ended up packing my things in a pod and moving back home to Indianapolis to figure out what would be be next for myself. While at home, I encountered a sense of boredom and depression I had never experienced before. I did not want to take part in or do any of the things I normally would do for fun. I ignored friends and colleagues. I removed myself from social media. I did not go out because I did not want to be seen. I was lost and struggling to find myself. One place I did go without hesitation was church on Sunday mornings. I would watch Pastor Jenkins from the First Baptist Church of Glenarden in the morning before heading to my home church to hear Pastor Johnson at Eastern Star. Each week I gained more confidence that something was going to happen in my favor. It was just a matter of time...
I may not know the why, but I know the Who. When I thought it was all falling apart when He's putting it all together...